Make Peace with God
Consider and hear me, O Lord my God: lighten mine eyes, lest I sleep the sleep of death… But I have trusted in thy mercy; my heart shall rejoice in thy salvation. (Psalm 13:3,5 KJV)
When my son Steve’s last breath passed his lips early one morning in a small hospital room overlooking the ocean, the world stood still for me. I felt God reassuring me. Still, the impact of losing my son left me in shambles
“Let go and move on” was the well-meaning advice I seemed to get from every side. But where was I to move on to? And how? Deep inside, I felt bitter and angry with God for snatching my vibrant young son from me. I felt cheated and empty.
Eventually I decided to meet God on my porch early each morning to tell Him of my woes. Days stretched to weeks as I poured on Him all my grief, remorse, and anger over what had happened. “If love is the essence of Your nature, as the Bible says, how could You deal so harshly with me and my son?” I asked over and over.
What a patient and long-suffering listener I found.
I cried and pleaded and reasoned, until finally one morning I felt I had said all that I wanted and poured out all my emotions. It was then, when I was willing to make peace with God, that tranquility filled my soul. In a still, soothing voice, God began to speak to my heart. From that point on, my solitary morning porch meetings with God took another direction. I learned to listen to Him and to allow Him to comfort me and heal my pain. [1]
Perhaps the most important thing I can say to you is that God loves you and understands what you’re going through. - Rev. Billy Graham
[1] Anchor Overcoming Grief
